School Days

I started school on Monday and it's going pretty well. Last night, however, I had the worst night I've had in a very long time.

I took a sleeping pill because I have had insomnia for the longest time and I'm trying to get on some kind of good sleep schedule. Normally, I take Ambient which works like a charm but I was out, so I took one of my son's (which he no longer takes). Can I just say, that now I know why he doesn't take it anymore??

Through the entire night I had panic attacks and nightmares and through it all I was lucid..so I knew I was dreaming but I was so groggy and under that I would fade in and out. So I will never take it again. I still haven't slept, but I got tired of lying there tossing and turning. I decided to get some breakfast (toast with peanut butter) and a cup of herbal tea to try and soothe me some.

Ugh...anyway, things are great. Been very busy and wanted to update this thing!

Ciao for now..

"a copy of a copy.."

I love the book/movie FIGHT CLUB because of the whole insomnia viewpoint. I mean..he hits the nail right on the head. Sometimes there's a detachment from your own body. It moves when you aren't moving. It talks when you're sleeping. And everything is a copy of a copy of a copy. No amount of caffeine can keep you awake, no amount of pills can make you sleep.

Unfortunately -- yes unfortunately -- I haven't developed another personality. I mean...I'd really like to see what my alter ego would look like, act like, etc. I think it'd be a little scary. Actually....I think it'd be a lot scary.

Emotionally, however, I've been well. Still calm and happy. Rolling into that healthy stage where I can wear my clothes that I love so much and even a hint of girly-ness in it. It's easier to play the part of a Diva when you're sparkling and tinkling, I suppose.

I've kept to my workouts faithfully. One hour a night. Eating has been "okay" I'm going to switch back to the more healthy foods. For a week or so I was just eating normal foods that the family eats but adjusting my portions and that wasn't working out too well..I'm just maintaining a steady weight instead of going down. This does not make for a very happy Halo. >.<

Anyway, that is all for now..I tend to ramble when I have no real point.

zzzzzzz

I'm tired and lazy today. >.<



The End.

mother's day

Woot! My lady bug is mooooving! There's nothing better than waking up on mother's day and finding out you've lost another 2lbs :)

The ladybug should be moving down, I dunno why it's not >.< Anyway, above you'll see my bodybugg "results" page for the day :)

Playing on the Bipolar Playground on the manic swing

Not much going on. In a cleaning / organizing mode...mwhahahaha...

Iron Man <333

I loved this movie if you couldn't tell. It was a lot of fun and I love Robert Downey Jr. He's awesome. Being a huge fan of his for years, it kicks ass to see him finally emerge from drugs and alcohol into the actor I always knew he could be.

As for other things...I'm insanely tired. Got my period today, so insomnia is sort of a given at this time. Knock on wood, no migraine but I'm sure it's coming. It's been looming on the outskirts like a boogey man, I can feel it.

I've been eating so well for so long, I went to eat a french fry and couldn't do it. It literally tasted like crap. I ate half and gave the other half back.

I can see the difference in my figure now and it's great, now..if I could just get that damned scale to move along with it. Usually it goes up a few pounds when I'm ragging, which it hasn't...yet. That could mean one of two things.

1. I weigh less, but because I'm ragging, it's showing the same weight on the scale to compensate for the bloating

2. I haven't gotten to the "bloating" part yet.

I'll take door #1, ty.

I started another Ted Dekker book called "SAINT" since I liked "SKIN" so much. Hopefully, this book is just as good. =) I'll surely let you know.

Ohh lookie, I added this little ticker...note my lady bug ;)

hormones are teh suck

I'm in the "blue zone". That means I'm on the blue pills in my birth control pack and so I'm heading into PMS land. That also means I need to stock up on coffee and get no sleep for days. Let me tell you how excited I am. -.-

I tossed and turned all night last night. I even tried my chamomile tea to no avail. I watched boring ass tv shows (Meet the Groomer, ugh) and still...thrashed and flopped around like a dead flounder.

I finished my book SKIN last night. It did in fact have a surprise ending and I liked it. Almost didn't. But then I did. See, they waited until the last 2-3 pages to give the 'real' ending and so I was like OH! pleasantly surprised. So read it! I think I actually have another one of Ted Dekker's books so I may try to read that one too. But there's another one I want to get called ADAM. And Thre3 looks good too.

It's 11:51. It's cloudy and icky out (not the awesome overcast of an impending storm, boo) and I have a parent teacher meeting with Cam's teacher whom I'd love to stick in a back room with a hungry rat :D...(what? I'm just sayin!)